Saturday, October 10, 2009

Again, i was told to be independent. i knw hw everyone is always drilling in to me how i shldnt rely on him and stand on my own. I knw its all for my own good but each time i hear this i feel extremely down.Yes real down. Things are always easier when said just like how i always say i will be since 12345 yrs ago but still i'm struggling. Nobody likes being so weak so useless. I used to felt that a guy who loves you would be more than happy to give you al the support and jus like a bear always letting you lie on. But i was wrong, i was wrong. Things were never tt simple at all, until a person changes.

Yes, i am being emo again. Feeling extremely down. ( i wish best friend was here encouraging me)

I knw its cause frm the very first beginning and all along he spoilt me. But tt was when i felt he love me and saving the best for me. He was the one who started out being by my side, being wherever i was, never leaving me alone no matter where i go, and also insist of me being by him wherever he goes. After 2yrs, everyone wants me to be on my own and even you too. Isnt it so cruel to me? Whats wrong when we are always as one, isnt that what we used to be? then why is everything so cruel by taking it al from me. Bring me up to heaven and ask me to fly down by my own.

Isnt that just how am i suppose to be ? I'm sure every gals are demanding towards their love ones. Yes, i expect him to share everything with me b it big or small. And yet again he was the one who made me do it when he doesnt. Doubts and suspision always built and stack up each time and was nvr cleared. Ame's right, his someone who doesnt knw how to talk and always hurt me. Don everyone loves compliments?

Sigh, i'm tired of thinking and typing already.

Things jus aint like it use to be anymore, i cld whine i cld cry i cld be upset but nw i cld jus bottle it all inside and wait till i wake up the next day forgetting about it. Bcus everything now just leads to nth but quarrels. I'm sick and tired of quarrels, it causes bad heartaches bad eyes. It use to be both of us feeling hurt hugging at the end of everything fighting for faults. But nw each time i'm all alone feeling upset and tearing like fcuk

Timetable is out, and is shits. Many days wasted, 2hr lecture a day. freaking slack timetable.

10/10/2009 12:26:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

Again, i was told to be independent. i knw hw everyone is always drilling in to me how i shldnt rely on him and stand on my own. I knw its all for my own good but each time i hear this i feel extremely down.Yes real down. Things are always easier when said just like how i always say i will be since 12345 yrs ago but still i'm struggling. Nobody likes being so weak so useless. I used to felt that a guy who loves you would be more than happy to give you al the support and jus like a bear always letting you lie on. But i was wrong, i was wrong. Things were never tt simple at all, until a person changes.

Yes, i am being emo again. Feeling extremely down. ( i wish best friend was here encouraging me)

I knw its cause frm the very first beginning and all along he spoilt me. But tt was when i felt he love me and saving the best for me. He was the one who started out being by my side, being wherever i was, never leaving me alone no matter where i go, and also insist of me being by him wherever he goes. After 2yrs, everyone wants me to be on my own and even you too. Isnt it so cruel to me? Whats wrong when we are always as one, isnt that what we used to be? then why is everything so cruel by taking it al from me. Bring me up to heaven and ask me to fly down by my own.

Isnt that just how am i suppose to be ? I'm sure every gals are demanding towards their love ones. Yes, i expect him to share everything with me b it big or small. And yet again he was the one who made me do it when he doesnt. Doubts and suspision always built and stack up each time and was nvr cleared. Ame's right, his someone who doesnt knw how to talk and always hurt me. Don everyone loves compliments?

Sigh, i'm tired of thinking and typing already.

Things jus aint like it use to be anymore, i cld whine i cld cry i cld be upset but nw i cld jus bottle it all inside and wait till i wake up the next day forgetting about it. Bcus everything now just leads to nth but quarrels. I'm sick and tired of quarrels, it causes bad heartaches bad eyes. It use to be both of us feeling hurt hugging at the end of everything fighting for faults. But nw each time i'm all alone feeling upset and tearing like fcuk

Timetable is out, and is shits. Many days wasted, 2hr lecture a day. freaking slack timetable.

10/10/2009 12:26:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun