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Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Its another torture again, booking of jay concert tickets.
woke up at 8am , tried from 9am till now but still no avail.
Horrible Jam !
the moment i got the tickets, i get kicked out again. WTH
SIGH.
Redang has finally confirmed, we are leaving the day after my graduation day.
I'm so damn excited !
But at the same time, we are facing so much crisis now.
even to go for Jay's concert i have think twice, but now i cant seem to get any tickets ):
Finally it is work next week, i am sick of doing nth already.
Esp of thinking what to do the next day, but practically is just being with the bf.
I think he is getting sick of seeing me everyday, sick of me hanging ard everyday.
and now i'm the one who is always asking what will we be doing tml.
And he doesnt even initiate to talk about our meetings or time at all.
I merely wanted to treasure this week because i will be working the whole next week.
And if i knw that i wont be free tml i wil make sure that we are tgt the day before.
I just wanted to be there for him this period too.
But he doesnt even sees this.
4/14/2010 10:17:00 AM
please dont give up baby
Monday, April 12, 2010
I'm still feeling very down, kinda unhappy and angry.
Just feel so wronged for baby.
What did he do to deserve this?
So just because of a dog baby get screwed like this?
So just because of money?
Baby is 26 already, why is he still being controlled like a child ?
I know i dont have the right to say this but i feel that he shld just speak up.
just because of this setback he doesnt wants to go holidays anymore.
Isnt it that he has already got beaten down?
Shldnt he fight for his rights? when i have fight for mine.
His an adult now and he has the right to do what he want and not just get screwed and then not retaliate.
He wasnt in the wrong at all,
ok perhaps that if we had crashed with his parents trip, we can make changes.
But baby get blames for all the trips they had crashed with.
SIGGGHH.
I cant smile when you dont baby.
i dont feel any much better seeing you so down, knowing you are in the gym whacking it out.
Yes i know definitly you will feel much better
But still i wish you could just do something for yourself, even not for me.
Each time things like this happened,
you have to just swallowed down yourself,
why baby.
You have your own mind, your own thoughts, your own life.
I understand that you dont wanna make things worse
But..
i'm not trying to make things worse but i really need to voice it out somewhere.
i'm sorry i cldnt be of any much help, but i really feel upset for you.
I wish for us for yrself for me, you will fight it through.
Things never once worked out for us, we did it together once already, now we are near there,
another setback faced, but we can do it together like i did right?
It wasnt easy at all to move this far, please don't give up baby.
Life sucks big time esp when you meet huge setbacks, but, still you have to put on a smile and move on cause tommorrow will always be a better day and there is bound to be something worth fighting for
4/12/2010 12:40:00 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I pray real hard and hope that MOE hire us quickly and i can help baby pay off everything.
I wish.
4/11/2010 11:17:00 PM
NO OFFENCE
ok sudden turn of mood.
..
Sometimes i hate the part of him being having so much commitments esp to his senstive family.
No offence but i feel i just have to rant out.
Just how his parents always treat him like a small kid when he is already passing mid 20s this year.
i have no say in anything but i just dislike seeing things like this.
How everyone is pushing ah gal to him,
yes, it belongs to baby but she is part of the family to everyone, everyone have a part in playing and everything.
BUT when there is problem, everything is just push to baby.
It isnt fair at all.
then when it comes to a say of ah gal, baby have no say at all.
then what is it when it always comes to ah gal is yours ? They were the ones who had a part to play in spoiling her, a dog has to be watched 24hrs ? Baby had to always manage time just to rush home to watch her when no one is home.i'm getting really pissed off seeing baby suffering like this,then what is family when money is always the issue, its not that baby didnt pay or return.
baby has to struggle between work studies training, where can he get so much money.
why cant they understand it is never easy for baby and he hasnt taken allowance for 6mths.
6 long months baby struggled through.
sigh.
i'm hopping mad at seeing how baby is scolded accusingly.
i can say that when we are all thinking and booking for our trip the 1st thing on his mind is his parents and ah gal.
And it wasnt me or us being able to for holiday after so long.
i feel so angry for baby being wronged.
ok i need to cool down and go rest.
.
Now when i have the chance to go overseas but just with my own means.
He has to face all this now.
This is life we all have to face, sigh, and also something of him i have to accept.
I always know that the future we have will never gonna be easy and getting along with his family now is easy.
But in the future i know it is super damn not gonna be easy at all.
And times i think that having our ROM next year is gonna have so much objections.
4/11/2010 10:35:00 PM
Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on,
you're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I Wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on
so if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get close enough
Still holding on
you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you, yeah
I remember the nights, you know i still do
so if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
The one thing i'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing i depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath i'm praying
That's why i'm saying
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Baby believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
No, believe, i dont know what i do
Please forgive me, i can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
4/11/2010 10:13:00 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Yesterday we went down to Suntec for the Asian Travel Fair,
Baby & I went to check out all the rates.
Met up with Charles and Bern, we went to check out here & there.
Went for Coffee and discussed.
Decided on Cruise Redang but no more cabins available.
So we decided to go for Redang and then Cruise in Aug.
Initial plan was cruise first and then redang.
Ok, i cant wait for Aug cruise.
But our Redang in may first (:
End of year another shopping trip.
So so anticipating !
Redang gonna be fun with the gorgeous beautiful view but then suffering for 10hrs journey.
(:
(:
4/10/2010 01:15:00 PM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Finally got a 1week assignment job, but damn low pay.
Ok, better then nth to help us tide the holiday trip.
Went MOE for an intv today,she said will call us this evening.
BUT NO CALL AT ALL :'(
SIGGHH.
i want that job so badly, damn damn good pay plus nice working environment.
I am really excited for our holiday, at the same time to celebrate our 3yrs anni as well.
tml we are going to suntec for asian fair,if there is nth we will meet charles & go to the chinatown one.
Hopefully, we can confirmed and book tml !
i will be so effing happy !
But we are looking for 3nights but there isnt any available or suitable ones.
Bcus 2 nights is really short and rush.
i wanna get away from singapore and relax with B !
.........
With you around, there isnt any fear. I love the way you do things for me. I love the way you are here for me. Esp being there, sending me for intvs, making sure i'm safe all the time. Once in awhile, touching my face.
I know nth can describe this kind of magical feeling, there is how love is isnt it?
I cant believe its gonna be the 3rd year already.
i'm looking so forward to it and our forth year.
baby you knw what the forth year is huh, i'm not stressing you. But this is a dream and another journey of life for us. I know we can always work hard for what we want.
i love you baby
4/08/2010 08:46:00 PM
Monday, April 5, 2010
One thing on my mind everyday, Our holiday.
Ok, i am facing huge financial crisis now, for once. It feels really horrible. Ok problems with family.
Havent been talking to them, they doesnt seems happy about giving me allowance
Seems like they are cutting allowance for me.
But i cant let this happen bcus i need it to save.
They dont intend to pay for my trip at all.
2Trips to plan for, lucky i have some tiny savings but still not enough.
Busy with job searching to satisfy this 2 trips, tough days.
Anyway last week was a blast !
Tue night caught When in Rome with the 5N1 Girls, JY came to pick Ame so he gave me a ride to SIM.
Khim ended class & we went for dinner with his teammates at AMK.
Stayover at his place & the next morning rushed to SP & SIM for my uni application.
Thurs was the blasting day, went for Kbox with JY, Jan, ZX & Andy. After kbox they all came over to my place while i packed my bag.
Bcus last min decided to ON (Overnight)
Went to Chompchomp for dinner and then ICE CUBE :) Mega loves.
Headed back to JY place, spent the night drinking and playing.
Ok we had less than 2hrs of slp and headed for badminton the next morning.
I felt horrible after so much of drinking.
AND why bcus i had to drink for khim. Isnt it suppose to be the opposite? i'm always drinking for him.
when is he ever drinking for me as my boyfriend? Sigh.
After badminton we headed back home and slept all the way to evening.
Dinner at Waraku with DB cliques and Clash of the titans after, followed by Tau huey as usual.
Sat was 35mths, was suppose to go PIG_NIG & kite flying but was pouring heavily.
went to meet Jy ame zx jan wl bl & spent the whole afternoon standing deciding what to do.
In e end they left for Astons, i didnt want western food so i forced khim for steamboat.
Ok cut it short, i'm in need of a job.
Thurs we are going for cheap cruise hunting, CANT WAIT !!
...............................
I don wish to say anything about this but i wish i feel my importance to you. Bcus once again DB is on top me again.
Well, what else can i do or say but just learn to live with it.
4/05/2010 09:18:00 PM
Its another torture again, booking of jay concert tickets.
woke up at 8am , tried from 9am till now but still no avail.
Horrible Jam !
the moment i got the tickets, i get kicked out again. WTH
SIGH.
Redang has finally confirmed, we are leaving the day after my graduation day.
I'm so damn excited !
But at the same time, we are facing so much crisis now.
even to go for Jay's concert i have think twice, but now i cant seem to get any tickets ):
Finally it is work next week, i am sick of doing nth already.
Esp of thinking what to do the next day, but practically is just being with the bf.
I think he is getting sick of seeing me everyday, sick of me hanging ard everyday.
and now i'm the one who is always asking what will we be doing tml.
And he doesnt even initiate to talk about our meetings or time at all.
I merely wanted to treasure this week because i will be working the whole next week.
And if i knw that i wont be free tml i wil make sure that we are tgt the day before.
I just wanted to be there for him this period too.
But he doesnt even sees this.
4/14/2010 10:17:00 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
please dont give up baby
I'm still feeling very down, kinda unhappy and angry.
Just feel so wronged for baby.
What did he do to deserve this?
So just because of a dog baby get screwed like this?
So just because of money?
Baby is 26 already, why is he still being controlled like a child ?
I know i dont have the right to say this but i feel that he shld just speak up.
just because of this setback he doesnt wants to go holidays anymore.
Isnt it that he has already got beaten down?
Shldnt he fight for his rights? when i have fight for mine.
His an adult now and he has the right to do what he want and not just get screwed and then not retaliate.
He wasnt in the wrong at all,
ok perhaps that if we had crashed with his parents trip, we can make changes.
But baby get blames for all the trips they had crashed with.
SIGGGHH.
I cant smile when you dont baby.
i dont feel any much better seeing you so down, knowing you are in the gym whacking it out.
Yes i know definitly you will feel much better
But still i wish you could just do something for yourself, even not for me.
Each time things like this happened,
you have to just swallowed down yourself,
why baby.
You have your own mind, your own thoughts, your own life.
I understand that you dont wanna make things worse
But..
i'm not trying to make things worse but i really need to voice it out somewhere.
i'm sorry i cldnt be of any much help, but i really feel upset for you.
I wish for us for yrself for me, you will fight it through.
Things never once worked out for us, we did it together once already, now we are near there,
another setback faced, but we can do it together like i did right?
It wasnt easy at all to move this far, please don't give up baby.
Life sucks big time esp when you meet huge setbacks, but, still you have to put on a smile and move on cause tommorrow will always be a better day and there is bound to be something worth fighting for
4/12/2010 12:40:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I pray real hard and hope that MOE hire us quickly and i can help baby pay off everything.
I wish.
4/11/2010 11:17:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
NO OFFENCE
ok sudden turn of mood.
..
Sometimes i hate the part of him being having so much commitments esp to his senstive family.
No offence but i feel i just have to rant out.
Just how his parents always treat him like a small kid when he is already passing mid 20s this year.
i have no say in anything but i just dislike seeing things like this.
How everyone is pushing ah gal to him,
yes, it belongs to baby but she is part of the family to everyone, everyone have a part in playing and everything.
BUT when there is problem, everything is just push to baby.
It isnt fair at all.
then when it comes to a say of ah gal, baby have no say at all.
then what is it when it always comes to ah gal is yours ? They were the ones who had a part to play in spoiling her, a dog has to be watched 24hrs ? Baby had to always manage time just to rush home to watch her when no one is home.i'm getting really pissed off seeing baby suffering like this,then what is family when money is always the issue, its not that baby didnt pay or return.
baby has to struggle between work studies training, where can he get so much money.
why cant they understand it is never easy for baby and he hasnt taken allowance for 6mths.
6 long months baby struggled through.
sigh.
i'm hopping mad at seeing how baby is scolded accusingly.
i can say that when we are all thinking and booking for our trip the 1st thing on his mind is his parents and ah gal.
And it wasnt me or us being able to for holiday after so long.
i feel so angry for baby being wronged.
ok i need to cool down and go rest.
.
Now when i have the chance to go overseas but just with my own means.
He has to face all this now.
This is life we all have to face, sigh, and also something of him i have to accept.
I always know that the future we have will never gonna be easy and getting along with his family now is easy.
But in the future i know it is super damn not gonna be easy at all.
And times i think that having our ROM next year is gonna have so much objections.
4/11/2010 10:35:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on,
you're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I Wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on
so if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get close enough
Still holding on
you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you, yeah
I remember the nights, you know i still do
so if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
The one thing i'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing i depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath i'm praying
That's why i'm saying
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Baby believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
No, believe, i dont know what i do
Please forgive me, i can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
4/11/2010 10:13:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Yesterday we went down to Suntec for the Asian Travel Fair,
Baby & I went to check out all the rates.
Met up with Charles and Bern, we went to check out here & there.
Went for Coffee and discussed.
Decided on Cruise Redang but no more cabins available.
So we decided to go for Redang and then Cruise in Aug.
Initial plan was cruise first and then redang.
Ok, i cant wait for Aug cruise.
But our Redang in may first (:
End of year another shopping trip.
So so anticipating !
Redang gonna be fun with the gorgeous beautiful view but then suffering for 10hrs journey.
(:
(:
4/10/2010 01:15:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Finally got a 1week assignment job, but damn low pay.
Ok, better then nth to help us tide the holiday trip.
Went MOE for an intv today,she said will call us this evening.
BUT NO CALL AT ALL :'(
SIGGHH.
i want that job so badly, damn damn good pay plus nice working environment.
I am really excited for our holiday, at the same time to celebrate our 3yrs anni as well.
tml we are going to suntec for asian fair,if there is nth we will meet charles & go to the chinatown one.
Hopefully, we can confirmed and book tml !
i will be so effing happy !
But we are looking for 3nights but there isnt any available or suitable ones.
Bcus 2 nights is really short and rush.
i wanna get away from singapore and relax with B !
.........
With you around, there isnt any fear. I love the way you do things for me. I love the way you are here for me. Esp being there, sending me for intvs, making sure i'm safe all the time. Once in awhile, touching my face.
I know nth can describe this kind of magical feeling, there is how love is isnt it?
I cant believe its gonna be the 3rd year already.
i'm looking so forward to it and our forth year.
baby you knw what the forth year is huh, i'm not stressing you. But this is a dream and another journey of life for us. I know we can always work hard for what we want.
i love you baby
4/08/2010 08:46:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
One thing on my mind everyday, Our holiday.
Ok, i am facing huge financial crisis now, for once. It feels really horrible. Ok problems with family.
Havent been talking to them, they doesnt seems happy about giving me allowance
Seems like they are cutting allowance for me.
But i cant let this happen bcus i need it to save.
They dont intend to pay for my trip at all.
2Trips to plan for, lucky i have some tiny savings but still not enough.
Busy with job searching to satisfy this 2 trips, tough days.
Anyway last week was a blast !
Tue night caught When in Rome with the 5N1 Girls, JY came to pick Ame so he gave me a ride to SIM.
Khim ended class & we went for dinner with his teammates at AMK.
Stayover at his place & the next morning rushed to SP & SIM for my uni application.
Thurs was the blasting day, went for Kbox with JY, Jan, ZX & Andy. After kbox they all came over to my place while i packed my bag.
Bcus last min decided to ON (Overnight)
Went to Chompchomp for dinner and then ICE CUBE :) Mega loves.
Headed back to JY place, spent the night drinking and playing.
Ok we had less than 2hrs of slp and headed for badminton the next morning.
I felt horrible after so much of drinking.
AND why bcus i had to drink for khim. Isnt it suppose to be the opposite? i'm always drinking for him.
when is he ever drinking for me as my boyfriend? Sigh.
After badminton we headed back home and slept all the way to evening.
Dinner at Waraku with DB cliques and Clash of the titans after, followed by Tau huey as usual.
Sat was 35mths, was suppose to go PIG_NIG & kite flying but was pouring heavily.
went to meet Jy ame zx jan wl bl & spent the whole afternoon standing deciding what to do.
In e end they left for Astons, i didnt want western food so i forced khim for steamboat.
Ok cut it short, i'm in need of a job.
Thurs we are going for cheap cruise hunting, CANT WAIT !!
...............................
I don wish to say anything about this but i wish i feel my importance to you. Bcus once again DB is on top me again.
Well, what else can i do or say but just learn to live with it.
4/05/2010 09:18:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
