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Lovely christmas and boxing day
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Before i suffer from STM, let me share about the wonderful christmas we had.
Early morning on Christmas eve, met khim and we went to Vivo to caught Alvin & the chipmunks, went to Dan office and headed to pick Liyun up.
Then we went to IMM to did some drinks and stuffs and the log cake and set off to Changi V hotel. The hotel was gorgeous, esp the view with the rooftop swimming pool.
we had our dinner at Lemongrass at E hub, there was only jas, rey and yun. Cabbed back after dnr to swim but it was freezing freaking damn cold. I cldnt stop trembling and had to went back to shower.
waited for the rest to be back and started our countdown. The hotel was having countdown party and the atmosphere was great. we had our champanges and screams of countdown.
Our dear dan cldnt make it back in time but he sped and ran back.. Well, he tot he had scratched the car so all of us went down to the carpark with our champange glasses jus to check the car.
when we gt back, we cut the log cake and started our christmas carols :)) sang for almost 2hrs and it was real fun !
Up next we had our christmas exchange, this yr was something different, instead of getting gifts for all 7 of us we got only 1. So, each of us have to write 7 different type of presents we want. Give it to each of them and draw lots, once u pick the person, find the person name u have gotten and get him/her that gift. So, i picked van and so lucky khim picked mine and it was the epiliator. I was dying to get either the perfume or coach i wanted. But well .... :) BAD khim even bluffed me tt he got it for Shirey !
After exchanging all of us went for Changi Nasi Lemak excpt Van & SA. Did the decoration of photo frames after we ate and van, sa and jas went back home.
It was rather rare for us to be able to last all the way to 5am ! it was so dead tiring. Luckily 4 of us cld fit in the king size bed but poor dan on the sofa.
we went for "wen dou sek" at geylang in the morning and dan sent us back.
we took a nap only at 4pm and woke up at 6 for dinner. Dan came to pick us at 11pm for supper and Treasure Hunter at GV yishun. Horrible show and i rate it only 0.5/5. we were all sleeping or rather trying to stay awake. Well, for the first time baby din sleep at all. It must have been his birthday tt explains why he was so awake.
So khim's bday was spent home in the day resting, dinner was at North Indian Restaurant at Boat Quay with his family. After dinner we went to Tanjong Ru to meet up with them and had the "bday cake, it was apple strudel.
This year bday was really so simple, i din plan anything at all. I knw everyone are pointing fingers at me. Bcus the last minute and so unconfirmed answers. I cldnt do anything. Esp baby's cake bcus i was with him all day long . I felt so so guilty to have not plan anything for him.
His bday present was also gaven to him so much earlier bcus i wanted to see if he like it. It was jus a wallet and a top. Nth much surprising.
I'm so mean i knw.
I promise i wld make it better next yr baby.
i'm sorry.
my baby wanted to bowl but it was fully packed so we went to East Coast HK cafe ,enjoy the life band and ate. Took a stroll by the beach.
Sunday afternoon we went back to my place to had lunch, baby slept all the way and den went back home while i headed to grandma's place for dinner. After dinner baby picked me up and we went to ICE3 to meet Dan, Van, Sa, Rey.
The festive period is over :(
and i missed them so much !
On a side note, baby is bring me for picnic at Barrage, like finally ! Pray so hard its nt gonna rain ! We will be bring ah gal along, and i'm gonna prepare pasta for us :))
so uber excited !
the gals christmas hats :)
the champagne
How strong my baby when i weigh like a elephant !
the rooftop pool
our Room :)
cheers ~
LOVE YOU HONEY :)))
i'm kinda glad that we are gonna end this yr beautifully.
Knwing what we both want for the future, working hard for our ROM.
Planning for it is nvr gonna be easy but its the process that u have to enjoy.
I'm glad that i had him with me.
And if his the one who could accept me for who i am, my 100% bad temper, my pamperness, and every single thing of me.
why cant i do that as well ??
i'm glad that he had knw the importance, esp sat night i asked him what time is yr training tml and it's 4am already, arnt u gonna slp ? He replied, 745 am. But i'm nt going bcus i wanna acc u :)))
It really caught me by surprise. Real surprise. He did it for me, after the break it was the 1st training, but he din went.
i'm very glad he did that for me.
Many hav always asked me, are you sure? are you very sure his the one for u? Its a lifetime commitment u knw.
So stay tuned and i will be back saying it from my heart to the world : "YES he is the ONE "
another 2 more days and its the end of 2009
2009 havent been a good year for me, have been through so much ups and downs.
Oh well, thought that it has been so smooth sailing for us.
But to think we have both matured so much, now quarrels and disputes aint about those silly stupid stuffs but about the future.
we had a quarrel all over the future, jobs and ROM yday.
It isnt that easy to search for a place that is affordable yet nice. Esp when we both are still schooling.
After thinking through everything, i found it so silly of me to even think that perhaps we arnt meant for each other bcus of our both different thinking towards our life.
Me being someone who only wants simplicity, a simple life, having the family get together every sunday , going home after work every night to have dinner with yr family. But him on the other hand, want something he always dream for. And to be a policeman.
After talking things out , we tried finding alternatives to solve things. But it didnt help ... We have decided to think through and talk it out again.
After much thinking, maybe i cld come to terms with it one fine day. And why let this affect us? It doesnt takes 2 same person to get together but its fate and the love that wasnt easy to come by.
I'm nt gonna let this issue affect us and also our ROM.
Labels: 17mths
12/29/2009 07:56:00 PM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas seems to be over, alt 12 days of Christmas but the mood is over.
Our hotel countdown has end it was A blasting one, wait til I get back home and upload those photos. It was crazy cus I snap 200photos in just a day. Insane!
Yday we al went to catch midnight movie at yishun, travel hunters sucks , total bullshit and it's the worst show ever. Was tryin to keep myself awake through out and they were all sleeping ..
Oh and it's my dear baby boy's bday, it's jus a simple celebration nth much. We gt
up pretty late and was after noon , when dwn to had our lunch. It's pouring away nw, intended to go for kite flying but what's with this weather man. It was meant to be a romantic time for just both of us but I doubt we can nw. Gonna go for dinner in a few hrs with his family and meeting bestestlove after dnr and his bday is over soon.
I feel kinda un-bearing tt the best days of the yr is over! Kinda sad , or rather very sad. Days gonna be back to normal again.
Well, I hope new yr's eve gonna be a great ne cus it's just the both of us
it had been long since we had some time of our own or some romance. It's always tt he doesn't seems bothered with it
12/26/2009 03:24:00 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
bloody pissed can..
I totally can't take it anymore. acting like doesn't care and don't know anything,making things difficult for me. Isn't helping my festive mood at all!
slping after lunch and lying at the couch ignoring me totally even when I got mad and still cont slp... What the F*** is this.
After nt spending any much quality time tgt since u came back. So what if I see u practically everyday, its like nth at all bcus either u lose yr temper at me or we act nth like a couple.
Nursing yr extraction, recovering from that hell diahroea.
Den what do I deserve after all this
Getting so bloody headache about yr birthday but nt even a single help or appreciation.
I had enough of it.. Totally.
12/22/2009 02:49:00 PM
Monday, December 21, 2009
Tml I will be heading to town again
this is the 4th time in this week already , wed khim's extraction, yday to get his present, today to shw him the wallet I wanted, and tml to hand his form to e dentist and wed for his review which means 5 time in a week. Kinda insane.
Tml gonna get up pretty early n go dwn den wait for him to wake up n cone dwn. Nobody likes gng to town alone n shop alone. I am pretty sure he is gonna b real late with lotsa excuse like help his mum tadah tadah and I can't say anything right? This happens every single time n he is never ever early when coming to meet me. Argh, I dono hw I cld put up with this bcus the thing I can't stand most is waiting and ppl who are nvr punctual.
He shall be glad to hav such a great gf getting up early in e morning go dwn to town just to hand in a piece of paper. And bet the shops arnt even open.
I just pray hard he won't put my aeroplane leaving me al alone bcus of his diarhoea again. This whole week with him is really so bad, nt spending any time tgt either delaying in our meet up or nt meeting at all last min and yes that bad
I really hope he wld get well by this thursday for the joyful festive season
12/21/2009 12:37:00 AM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
1week since khim is back
this 1 week has been bad .. Him having non stop diarhoea prolly due to his antibiotics for the wisdom tooth extraction . This causes him to b so hot tempered and irritated, yes and he is irritated with me and losing his temper at me. Well being his baby I have to accept and go through all this n glad tt he cld vent it all out n he feels better but still there limit to everything
I'm more concern about his consecutive diahroea as it isn't very good to have it more then 2 days. Worried he wld get dehydrated or anything wld happen. I wish very much he cld recover quickly
1 week since I had yr kisses
1 week since I had yr love
1 week since I had yr attention
get well soon pls
12/20/2009 12:46:00 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Love means no boundaries.
Despite the temper thrown on me i smiled and get over it. That's how love is.
Poor khim is having food poisoning from Penang's food, adding on the wisdom tooth inflammation, unabling to eat well, that explains all the bad temper.
Alt i was shocked by that he raised his voice at me, i was jus mad instead of getting well or see a doc he insists of getting his Iphone. Somehow like a small little baby wanting ice cream, that's how silly he is.
Well, i had to bear through with all this and be there for him.
Hope that the inflammation swells down and his tummy get much better.
12/17/2009 10:10:00 PM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
worried
12/16/2009 10:33:00 PM
my strong boy have completed half of his wisdom extraction. The right top and bottom done. Leaving the left top and bottom.
Poor him have to be in pain and also huge uncomfortness. And unable to eat as well.
this 2 days have been pretty boring, since he came back I have been over at his place. Seeing him slp al day long and me entertaining myself with watching tv and playing with my doudou. I am getting sick of it..
I can't wait for christmas to come to enjoy.
.........
so what u had treated them and show them the care and concern, after all you are nth but just CLASSMATES to them. so what it has been 7 years, you are just yet a hi-bye fren.
I rmb reading someone's fb and realise my bf does not sees my FB and blog as well. All he does is go right straight to as usual DB :)
12/16/2009 06:37:00 PM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I dono what the hell is wrong.
I feel so Damn weird. Its like I have gotten use to life being alone and khim nt ard and I keep can't accepting the fact that he is back.
It feels weird.
Or its PMS. I guess it all takes time to adapt back again. Somehow I think I'm quite adaptive to things easily huh.
I keep telling sis yday I still can't believe he is coming back and she says that I don wan him to be back huh.
Haha.
I'm like deprive from enjoying my holidays. I haven been really enjoying myself after the exams. I have been dying to catch new moon so much again!
Argh!
Labels: irritated
12/15/2009 01:26:00 PM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I'm still coughing away like an old woman BUT it only happens at night and I don't knw why.
Seen the doctor third time today.
I have been on medication for few mths and its all diff kind. and this isn't very healthy.
My body is getting weaker and weaker every mth.
I can't count the number of times I have seen the doctor this year including amt of specialist. From heart lungs colon. Oh my.
It finally sunday, 2 more days to go..
Just nw was dan's bday celebration, we went to tao's restaurant for 7 course meal and it was splendid! Unique way of serving and food, I was so full that I Cldnt even finish my main course. I'm sure if khim was ard he wld enjoy the steak.
They wanted to go 4 a drink but I cldnt bcus I promised khim. In the end they headed to ktv, I Cldnt sing bcus of my cough so I walked to bugis with them.
And somethin unbelievable I walked frm bugis to city hall to take bus70. And the road there is one whole stretch filled with trees and total darkness. I myself cldnt believe I cld walk alone there, even normally with khim I wld still be scare. I am so very proud of myself and wish to share this with him but sadly when he called I din.
Text him instead but guess he went to slp without looking at his phone, his prolly too tired.
I really wonder does he miss me at all ? Like he always miss me when I'm nt ard. Bcus it seems like he doesn't at all. :(
Sigh.
Luckily I had doudou ard to keep me occupied on bus rides whenever alone.
12/12/2009 11:28:00 PM
Friday, December 11, 2009
time really does flies, it dec already. 3 more weeks its the end of 2009
And the day that i dread most i wish for it nvr to arrive has finally arrive.
It feels totally terrible, worst then the first time he left for even longer 6days.
He had nvr ever been away from me for so long other den me going to HK.
i really wish so much time cld fly to mon. And i'm sure the moment i see him i wld burst into tears. Sigh, that's the consequences of being so dependent on him. I keep telling myself this short period is for me to learn to b independent BUT i just cant stop thinking of baby :(
I'm so damn useless that i cant even do things properly without him ard.
i knw how i have entered into the dead path and there is no way for me to turn ard.
But stil i wished i cld just b strong and await his arrival back.
I really want him back right now :(
Mon he was ard to pick me from exam and brought me to the clinic, Tue he was also ard to went L4D2 with me, taking bus ride home, Staying over, cleaning up my clumsiness bcus i fear eating medicines, kissing me on the forehead before leaving for training. Acc him to his dentist, went home to rest, studied and waited for him when he went for his sports talk, thurs acc him for his appt, back home to rest, headed out for dnr and sent him to sch.
This few days memories keep lingering ard me :( I don knw why i am missing him so much.
Esp the image of him waking up in e middle of e night just to put the blanket properly on me and kissing me on the forehead.
i wish for him to b bck to celebrate the end of exams with me. But poor him is gonna have his wisdom teeth extract on wed. And to see him in pain :(
12/11/2009 12:41:00 PM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
i wanna scream, i need something to suppress the feeling :(
can time just flies quickly to monday.
i thought i was ok i though i could handle this perfectly.
But to know i cldnt.
i thought i wouldnt drop a single tear but when we started talking and telling each other not to this and that i felt so upset suddenly and told him to stop first.
And then my tears couldnt stop after that.
Somehow we din really treasure the time, i was so sick tt i slept everywhere i go. The moment i sat dwn i slept. We din spend time cuddling and enjoying the warm of his hug at all, that is what i needed most ALWAYS.
Instead of treasuring the time we have, either i was sleeping, or he was sleeping or he was playing with doudou.
it all just doesnt feels right
I wanted to acc him in sch till he leave and everything, but he insists of sis sending me home so he cld b at ease. Well, i had no choice but to leave him alone. It all ended with his hugs and kisses with a little unbearing.
Thanks that his sis and mum ensured i was home safetly and even waited for me to go in the gate.
The moment i step home i felt it all, tears started forming up. At every cough or pain i thought of him even more. i thought of tml would b even tougher bcus its e last day of exam. Or every morning he wld text me after his 6am training, either picking me to school or picking me home and of course celebrating the end of exams.
3.30pm paper is sucha bitch. It makes me feel even upset, esp during lunch time where he wld bring me 4 lunch knwing i have no lunch.
AWWWW. it sounds like he is going for a mth.
Just a short 4days but to me it seems like forever.
Due to the effect of exams and then feeling so sick. I just wished he was here.
Already been to the clinic for 2nd time and i guess i'm going 4 the 3rd time bcus i'm getting worst. Frm sore throat-cough-sore throat + cough.
The moment i talk it hurts like mad.
I keep thinking of it when u woke up in e middle of the night just to put the blanket on me properly.
PLS bless baby with lotsa safety :)
12/10/2009 10:12:00 PM
Thursday, December 3, 2009
2 lab test down, 1 last one to go tml.
But yet again, i'm sick.
It must have due to the accumulated lack of sleep for consecutive 3weeks, adding on the ultra mega stress i am facing everyday.
Esp mst, it is killing me. My mind is filled with nth but lab tests and mst, following on FYP to worry about.
Year3 seriously sucks big time.
After so long the illness is come attacking me again, felt so weak all over the moment i woke up this morning. Pop 2 MAX panadol it felt better, drag myself to school. After lunch the med effect went off. Khim came to pick me and to see the doc and send me home.
Appreciated that he came from home to SP, to YCK and back to SIM for his training.
OH this dumbo of mine hurt his neck and now his neck is out of place. AND the worst thing he hid it from me and i found out myself. Got so extremely mad and seeing him in pain my heart soften.
Gotten my bday gift from Bf Jieyu , my all wanted big big baby carebear ! and a small carebear speaker. So touched that he really went to get it for me, came to sch to pass me. THANKS tons Bf , much love.
Now tt i'm sick i see no hope in tml lab test anymore. A very bad habit of me bcus whenever i'm sick i totally cant study bcus i feel so weak.
AND lastly,
Happy 31 mthsary Honey <3
12/03/2009 06:45:00 PM
Lovely christmas and boxing day
Before i suffer from STM, let me share about the wonderful christmas we had.
Early morning on Christmas eve, met khim and we went to Vivo to caught Alvin & the chipmunks, went to Dan office and headed to pick Liyun up.
Then we went to IMM to did some drinks and stuffs and the log cake and set off to Changi V hotel. The hotel was gorgeous, esp the view with the rooftop swimming pool.
we had our dinner at Lemongrass at E hub, there was only jas, rey and yun. Cabbed back after dnr to swim but it was freezing freaking damn cold. I cldnt stop trembling and had to went back to shower.
waited for the rest to be back and started our countdown. The hotel was having countdown party and the atmosphere was great. we had our champanges and screams of countdown.
Our dear dan cldnt make it back in time but he sped and ran back.. Well, he tot he had scratched the car so all of us went down to the carpark with our champange glasses jus to check the car.
when we gt back, we cut the log cake and started our christmas carols :)) sang for almost 2hrs and it was real fun !
Up next we had our christmas exchange, this yr was something different, instead of getting gifts for all 7 of us we got only 1. So, each of us have to write 7 different type of presents we want. Give it to each of them and draw lots, once u pick the person, find the person name u have gotten and get him/her that gift. So, i picked van and so lucky khim picked mine and it was the epiliator. I was dying to get either the perfume or coach i wanted. But well .... :) BAD khim even bluffed me tt he got it for Shirey !
After exchanging all of us went for Changi Nasi Lemak excpt Van & SA. Did the decoration of photo frames after we ate and van, sa and jas went back home.
It was rather rare for us to be able to last all the way to 5am ! it was so dead tiring. Luckily 4 of us cld fit in the king size bed but poor dan on the sofa.
we went for "wen dou sek" at geylang in the morning and dan sent us back.
we took a nap only at 4pm and woke up at 6 for dinner. Dan came to pick us at 11pm for supper and Treasure Hunter at GV yishun. Horrible show and i rate it only 0.5/5. we were all sleeping or rather trying to stay awake. Well, for the first time baby din sleep at all. It must have been his birthday tt explains why he was so awake.
So khim's bday was spent home in the day resting, dinner was at North Indian Restaurant at Boat Quay with his family. After dinner we went to Tanjong Ru to meet up with them and had the "bday cake, it was apple strudel.
This year bday was really so simple, i din plan anything at all. I knw everyone are pointing fingers at me. Bcus the last minute and so unconfirmed answers. I cldnt do anything. Esp baby's cake bcus i was with him all day long . I felt so so guilty to have not plan anything for him.
His bday present was also gaven to him so much earlier bcus i wanted to see if he like it. It was jus a wallet and a top. Nth much surprising.
I'm so mean i knw.
I promise i wld make it better next yr baby.
i'm sorry.
my baby wanted to bowl but it was fully packed so we went to East Coast HK cafe ,enjoy the life band and ate. Took a stroll by the beach.
Sunday afternoon we went back to my place to had lunch, baby slept all the way and den went back home while i headed to grandma's place for dinner. After dinner baby picked me up and we went to ICE3 to meet Dan, Van, Sa, Rey.
The festive period is over :(
and i missed them so much !
On a side note, baby is bring me for picnic at Barrage, like finally ! Pray so hard its nt gonna rain ! We will be bring ah gal along, and i'm gonna prepare pasta for us :))
so uber excited !
the gals christmas hats :)
the champagne
How strong my baby when i weigh like a elephant !
the rooftop pool
our Room :)
cheers ~
LOVE YOU HONEY :)))
i'm kinda glad that we are gonna end this yr beautifully.
Knwing what we both want for the future, working hard for our ROM.
Planning for it is nvr gonna be easy but its the process that u have to enjoy.
I'm glad that i had him with me.
And if his the one who could accept me for who i am, my 100% bad temper, my pamperness, and every single thing of me.
why cant i do that as well ??
i'm glad that he had knw the importance, esp sat night i asked him what time is yr training tml and it's 4am already, arnt u gonna slp ? He replied, 745 am. But i'm nt going bcus i wanna acc u :)))
It really caught me by surprise. Real surprise. He did it for me, after the break it was the 1st training, but he din went.
i'm very glad he did that for me.
Many hav always asked me, are you sure? are you very sure his the one for u? Its a lifetime commitment u knw.
So stay tuned and i will be back saying it from my heart to the world : "YES he is the ONE "
//
Out of the darkness and into the sun
another 2 more days and its the end of 2009
2009 havent been a good year for me, have been through so much ups and downs.
Oh well, thought that it has been so smooth sailing for us.
But to think we have both matured so much, now quarrels and disputes aint about those silly stupid stuffs but about the future.
we had a quarrel all over the future, jobs and ROM yday.
It isnt that easy to search for a place that is affordable yet nice. Esp when we both are still schooling.
After thinking through everything, i found it so silly of me to even think that perhaps we arnt meant for each other bcus of our both different thinking towards our life.
Me being someone who only wants simplicity, a simple life, having the family get together every sunday , going home after work every night to have dinner with yr family. But him on the other hand, want something he always dream for. And to be a policeman.
After talking things out , we tried finding alternatives to solve things. But it didnt help ... We have decided to think through and talk it out again.
After much thinking, maybe i cld come to terms with it one fine day. And why let this affect us? It doesnt takes 2 same person to get together but its fate and the love that wasnt easy to come by.
I'm nt gonna let this issue affect us and also our ROM.
Labels: 17mths
12/29/2009 07:56:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Christmas seems to be over, alt 12 days of Christmas but the mood is over.
Our hotel countdown has end it was A blasting one, wait til I get back home and upload those photos. It was crazy cus I snap 200photos in just a day. Insane!
Yday we al went to catch midnight movie at yishun, travel hunters sucks , total bullshit and it's the worst show ever. Was tryin to keep myself awake through out and they were all sleeping ..
Oh and it's my dear baby boy's bday, it's jus a simple celebration nth much. We gt
up pretty late and was after noon , when dwn to had our lunch. It's pouring away nw, intended to go for kite flying but what's with this weather man. It was meant to be a romantic time for just both of us but I doubt we can nw. Gonna go for dinner in a few hrs with his family and meeting bestestlove after dnr and his bday is over soon.
I feel kinda un-bearing tt the best days of the yr is over! Kinda sad , or rather very sad. Days gonna be back to normal again.
Well, I hope new yr's eve gonna be a great ne cus it's just the both of us
it had been long since we had some time of our own or some romance. It's always tt he doesn't seems bothered with it
12/26/2009 03:24:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
bloody pissed can..
I totally can't take it anymore. acting like doesn't care and don't know anything,making things difficult for me. Isn't helping my festive mood at all!
slping after lunch and lying at the couch ignoring me totally even when I got mad and still cont slp... What the F*** is this.
After nt spending any much quality time tgt since u came back. So what if I see u practically everyday, its like nth at all bcus either u lose yr temper at me or we act nth like a couple.
Nursing yr extraction, recovering from that hell diahroea.
Den what do I deserve after all this
Getting so bloody headache about yr birthday but nt even a single help or appreciation.
I had enough of it.. Totally.
12/22/2009 02:49:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Tml I will be heading to town again
this is the 4th time in this week already , wed khim's extraction, yday to get his present, today to shw him the wallet I wanted, and tml to hand his form to e dentist and wed for his review which means 5 time in a week. Kinda insane.
Tml gonna get up pretty early n go dwn den wait for him to wake up n cone dwn. Nobody likes gng to town alone n shop alone. I am pretty sure he is gonna b real late with lotsa excuse like help his mum tadah tadah and I can't say anything right? This happens every single time n he is never ever early when coming to meet me. Argh, I dono hw I cld put up with this bcus the thing I can't stand most is waiting and ppl who are nvr punctual.
He shall be glad to hav such a great gf getting up early in e morning go dwn to town just to hand in a piece of paper. And bet the shops arnt even open.
I just pray hard he won't put my aeroplane leaving me al alone bcus of his diarhoea again. This whole week with him is really so bad, nt spending any time tgt either delaying in our meet up or nt meeting at all last min and yes that bad
I really hope he wld get well by this thursday for the joyful festive season
12/21/2009 12:37:00 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
1week since khim is back
this 1 week has been bad .. Him having non stop diarhoea prolly due to his antibiotics for the wisdom tooth extraction . This causes him to b so hot tempered and irritated, yes and he is irritated with me and losing his temper at me. Well being his baby I have to accept and go through all this n glad tt he cld vent it all out n he feels better but still there limit to everything
I'm more concern about his consecutive diahroea as it isn't very good to have it more then 2 days. Worried he wld get dehydrated or anything wld happen. I wish very much he cld recover quickly
1 week since I had yr kisses
1 week since I had yr love
1 week since I had yr attention
get well soon pls
12/20/2009 12:46:00 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Love means no boundaries.
Despite the temper thrown on me i smiled and get over it. That's how love is.
Poor khim is having food poisoning from Penang's food, adding on the wisdom tooth inflammation, unabling to eat well, that explains all the bad temper.
Alt i was shocked by that he raised his voice at me, i was jus mad instead of getting well or see a doc he insists of getting his Iphone. Somehow like a small little baby wanting ice cream, that's how silly he is.
Well, i had to bear through with all this and be there for him.
Hope that the inflammation swells down and his tummy get much better.
12/17/2009 10:10:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
worried
12/16/2009 10:33:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
my strong boy have completed half of his wisdom extraction. The right top and bottom done. Leaving the left top and bottom.
Poor him have to be in pain and also huge uncomfortness. And unable to eat as well.
this 2 days have been pretty boring, since he came back I have been over at his place. Seeing him slp al day long and me entertaining myself with watching tv and playing with my doudou. I am getting sick of it..
I can't wait for christmas to come to enjoy.
.........
so what u had treated them and show them the care and concern, after all you are nth but just CLASSMATES to them. so what it has been 7 years, you are just yet a hi-bye fren.
I rmb reading someone's fb and realise my bf does not sees my FB and blog as well. All he does is go right straight to as usual DB :)
12/16/2009 06:37:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I dono what the hell is wrong.
I feel so Damn weird. Its like I have gotten use to life being alone and khim nt ard and I keep can't accepting the fact that he is back.
It feels weird.
Or its PMS. I guess it all takes time to adapt back again. Somehow I think I'm quite adaptive to things easily huh.
I keep telling sis yday I still can't believe he is coming back and she says that I don wan him to be back huh.
Haha.
I'm like deprive from enjoying my holidays. I haven been really enjoying myself after the exams. I have been dying to catch new moon so much again!
Argh!
Labels: irritated
12/15/2009 01:26:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I'm still coughing away like an old woman BUT it only happens at night and I don't knw why.
Seen the doctor third time today.
I have been on medication for few mths and its all diff kind. and this isn't very healthy.
My body is getting weaker and weaker every mth.
I can't count the number of times I have seen the doctor this year including amt of specialist. From heart lungs colon. Oh my.
It finally sunday, 2 more days to go..
Just nw was dan's bday celebration, we went to tao's restaurant for 7 course meal and it was splendid! Unique way of serving and food, I was so full that I Cldnt even finish my main course. I'm sure if khim was ard he wld enjoy the steak.
They wanted to go 4 a drink but I cldnt bcus I promised khim. In the end they headed to ktv, I Cldnt sing bcus of my cough so I walked to bugis with them.
And somethin unbelievable I walked frm bugis to city hall to take bus70. And the road there is one whole stretch filled with trees and total darkness. I myself cldnt believe I cld walk alone there, even normally with khim I wld still be scare. I am so very proud of myself and wish to share this with him but sadly when he called I din.
Text him instead but guess he went to slp without looking at his phone, his prolly too tired.
I really wonder does he miss me at all ? Like he always miss me when I'm nt ard. Bcus it seems like he doesn't at all. :(
Sigh.
Luckily I had doudou ard to keep me occupied on bus rides whenever alone.
12/12/2009 11:28:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
time really does flies, it dec already. 3 more weeks its the end of 2009
And the day that i dread most i wish for it nvr to arrive has finally arrive.
It feels totally terrible, worst then the first time he left for even longer 6days.
He had nvr ever been away from me for so long other den me going to HK.
i really wish so much time cld fly to mon. And i'm sure the moment i see him i wld burst into tears. Sigh, that's the consequences of being so dependent on him. I keep telling myself this short period is for me to learn to b independent BUT i just cant stop thinking of baby :(
I'm so damn useless that i cant even do things properly without him ard.
i knw how i have entered into the dead path and there is no way for me to turn ard.
But stil i wished i cld just b strong and await his arrival back.
I really want him back right now :(
Mon he was ard to pick me from exam and brought me to the clinic, Tue he was also ard to went L4D2 with me, taking bus ride home, Staying over, cleaning up my clumsiness bcus i fear eating medicines, kissing me on the forehead before leaving for training. Acc him to his dentist, went home to rest, studied and waited for him when he went for his sports talk, thurs acc him for his appt, back home to rest, headed out for dnr and sent him to sch.
This few days memories keep lingering ard me :( I don knw why i am missing him so much.
Esp the image of him waking up in e middle of e night just to put the blanket properly on me and kissing me on the forehead.
i wish for him to b bck to celebrate the end of exams with me. But poor him is gonna have his wisdom teeth extract on wed. And to see him in pain :(
12/11/2009 12:41:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
i wanna scream, i need something to suppress the feeling :(
can time just flies quickly to monday.
i thought i was ok i though i could handle this perfectly.
But to know i cldnt.
i thought i wouldnt drop a single tear but when we started talking and telling each other not to this and that i felt so upset suddenly and told him to stop first.
And then my tears couldnt stop after that.
Somehow we din really treasure the time, i was so sick tt i slept everywhere i go. The moment i sat dwn i slept. We din spend time cuddling and enjoying the warm of his hug at all, that is what i needed most ALWAYS.
Instead of treasuring the time we have, either i was sleeping, or he was sleeping or he was playing with doudou.
it all just doesnt feels right
I wanted to acc him in sch till he leave and everything, but he insists of sis sending me home so he cld b at ease. Well, i had no choice but to leave him alone. It all ended with his hugs and kisses with a little unbearing.
Thanks that his sis and mum ensured i was home safetly and even waited for me to go in the gate.
The moment i step home i felt it all, tears started forming up. At every cough or pain i thought of him even more. i thought of tml would b even tougher bcus its e last day of exam. Or every morning he wld text me after his 6am training, either picking me to school or picking me home and of course celebrating the end of exams.
3.30pm paper is sucha bitch. It makes me feel even upset, esp during lunch time where he wld bring me 4 lunch knwing i have no lunch.
AWWWW. it sounds like he is going for a mth.
Just a short 4days but to me it seems like forever.
Due to the effect of exams and then feeling so sick. I just wished he was here.
Already been to the clinic for 2nd time and i guess i'm going 4 the 3rd time bcus i'm getting worst. Frm sore throat-cough-sore throat + cough.
The moment i talk it hurts like mad.
I keep thinking of it when u woke up in e middle of the night just to put the blanket on me properly.
PLS bless baby with lotsa safety :)
12/10/2009 10:12:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
2 lab test down, 1 last one to go tml.
But yet again, i'm sick.
It must have due to the accumulated lack of sleep for consecutive 3weeks, adding on the ultra mega stress i am facing everyday.
Esp mst, it is killing me. My mind is filled with nth but lab tests and mst, following on FYP to worry about.
Year3 seriously sucks big time.
After so long the illness is come attacking me again, felt so weak all over the moment i woke up this morning. Pop 2 MAX panadol it felt better, drag myself to school. After lunch the med effect went off. Khim came to pick me and to see the doc and send me home.
Appreciated that he came from home to SP, to YCK and back to SIM for his training.
OH this dumbo of mine hurt his neck and now his neck is out of place. AND the worst thing he hid it from me and i found out myself. Got so extremely mad and seeing him in pain my heart soften.
Gotten my bday gift from Bf Jieyu , my all wanted big big baby carebear ! and a small carebear speaker. So touched that he really went to get it for me, came to sch to pass me. THANKS tons Bf , much love.
Now tt i'm sick i see no hope in tml lab test anymore. A very bad habit of me bcus whenever i'm sick i totally cant study bcus i feel so weak.
AND lastly,
Happy 31 mthsary Honey <3
12/03/2009 06:45:00 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
the champagne
How strong my baby when i weigh like a elephant !
the rooftop pool
our Room :)
cheers ~ 
Fighting on the verse to sing
the dare : take 2 ice cube into another room and try to melt it :)
we got to guess the present whoever picked and the person wil say if it is correct BUT
the long queue
all woken up
and its make of REAL biscuit ! 
Baby's cake from jie
the bday surprise :)
Lucky i had doudou to acc me through
