Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I'm back home, it doesnt feels any nice being home bcus it makes me miss the presence of khim by my side. Having dnr tgt with his family, laughters, tv tgt, desserts on the floor, cuddling when the strong wind blows.. But nevertheless i have my wonderful daddy who shows me cares and loves. Its how amazing that to feel the love from daddy is just so simple but yet frm khim it seems so hard.

What is love without security and assurances?

Even if we are tgt everyday, it seems tt his heart isnt with me. How cld i ever feel my importance? how cld he ever assure me and give me the security. In e past despite how busy he was hw tired he was , he still nvr failed to shower and gave me all the love security and assurances. now i have to read tru messages to remind myself of everything.

What exactly is the problem lying between us? i wish i knw. Perhaps its the trust tt i no longer have. he always seems to be hiding so much things frm me, jus like last monday. Many many things are jus running tru me.

I wish someone cld tell me hw i shld move on and forget everything, how i shld trust him all over again, hw i shld b assured he is there. I guess his the only one who can do that, through words and actions, but he who doesnt.

Got this frm bf's blog : Funny how everyone thinks that making promises will somehow help. In the end it will only hurt you more when they break them.

i can no longer rely on telling you how i feel bcus i knw what the circumstances would be. Everything is jus kept in me.

10/13/2009 10:38:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

I'm back home, it doesnt feels any nice being home bcus it makes me miss the presence of khim by my side. Having dnr tgt with his family, laughters, tv tgt, desserts on the floor, cuddling when the strong wind blows.. But nevertheless i have my wonderful daddy who shows me cares and loves. Its how amazing that to feel the love from daddy is just so simple but yet frm khim it seems so hard.

What is love without security and assurances?

Even if we are tgt everyday, it seems tt his heart isnt with me. How cld i ever feel my importance? how cld he ever assure me and give me the security. In e past despite how busy he was hw tired he was , he still nvr failed to shower and gave me all the love security and assurances. now i have to read tru messages to remind myself of everything.

What exactly is the problem lying between us? i wish i knw. Perhaps its the trust tt i no longer have. he always seems to be hiding so much things frm me, jus like last monday. Many many things are jus running tru me.

I wish someone cld tell me hw i shld move on and forget everything, how i shld trust him all over again, hw i shld b assured he is there. I guess his the only one who can do that, through words and actions, but he who doesnt.

Got this frm bf's blog : Funny how everyone thinks that making promises will somehow help. In the end it will only hurt you more when they break them.

i can no longer rely on telling you how i feel bcus i knw what the circumstances would be. Everything is jus kept in me.

10/13/2009 10:38:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun