A painful mistake learn

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I have no one to blame but myself, yes, due to carelessness, laziness and being afraid of troublesome. I have a bad habit of not zipping my bag so i can reach out for things easily, or jus leave things behind without noticing. And DUH now i lost my hp.

It was the most painful mistake i hav encounter, it was really hell hell. Greedy me excited i can get cookies, happily paid and walk up the stairs and realising that i lost my hp. I got the scare out of my wits, i was totally at a state of shock, luckily ws was calling my hp all the time going here and there with me. Emile & zx came down, thanks emile for searching carrying my bag and zx carrying my laptop. I was totally in shockness, called khim imme and he gt a shock. He came down like within mins, and i found out he was actu gonna surprise me but i gave him a even bigger surprise instead. Being always getting worked up and not being able to calm down me kinda pissed him off. He made me simmer down, qns and talked to me nicely.

Ws was calling the phone all along but to realise it was my voicemail music instead of the dialing tone. Sigh, the phone has already gone but all i cld do was jus cry. That process was so fcuking painful. Bcus :

#1 It was the first ever HP my daddy gotten for me and paid 500 without a single word
#2 It was like part of my life in whatever i do
#3 It was the one that kept me through boredom
#4 It was the one that diverts my attention whenever i wait for khim to reply me
#5 It was the one that allows me to fb, fml everynight before i slp
#6 It was the one that wakes me up every morning
#7 It was just like another part of me

#8 memories kept all in
#9 those msges that kept me moving when i had to read them everyday every night
#10 i treasure that phone so much then any others mainly it is from daddy !

# nvr ending ...............................................................

The msges that i had lost made quite a big impact, a whole 6mths of lovely msges jus gone. Those up and downs that we had been through, those making up, those sweet silly msges jus to cheer me up... are all gone now.

Alt it hurts, i believe memories do stil live in my heart.

So, it was already lost, headed to FYP room. Khim sat down, talked and reason it all out to me. But stil the moment i sat down, thoughts flow in i started bursting into tears. Even during lecture, lecture was all about HP, WLAN. and wlan which was the main usage of my E71. Khim drove me home, talked it all out with me and Daddy even intend to get a new one bcus he din wan mum to knw, it make me felt even worst. Baby checked his line, called starhub and he had a line to recontract. Without contract cost $800, freaking $800. I cant possibly let daddy get it, so baby let me use his line and cost only $348. But if the request of waiving $100 is approved,i only pay $248.

I know i know how pampered how spoilt am i. Baby told me i have to understand, learn from the mistake, not everything wil goes my way, and understand not everything i want i will have it.
I know the whole day my mind was all thinking that i want my E71 and i really want it. And baby even going all mights finding way to get it for me. I know baby is trying to not spoil me, let me work hard for what i want and not let things goes my way. But each time he sees me crys he feels totally helpless, all i cld do i jus cry neglecting the fact of him being upset too.

And yes, daddy gave me the money and now we are waiting for starhub to get back. Scold me spoilt and pampered i knw i deserve to be.

Knowing that i'm going on the wrong track, but the 2 beloved man in my life who love me so much let me be. Its not that they let things go my way but still they sat down and talk to me. I have to learn, to calm down and not jus cry.
Crying doesnt helps anything, Daddy : "daddy cant always be there for you helping you, what if i'm not ard anymore. You are a big girl already but how can i ever be relieve to trust u to stand on yr own."
Baby: " Baby you are a big girl, you cant just cry each time things happen. You have to learn from your mistake and whatever it is i am always here"

It has been a real hell day going through the shits, but baby was al along with me excpt leaving for training in the evening. I felt so much better, how he held me and guide me through. Touching my face gently each time i look at him, hugging me when i burst into tears and not even scolding me for crying, and lastly kissed me softly saying he is there.

My precious is gone but the lesson learnt is even more precious.

And tel myself always rmb to ZIP my bag and CHECK each time i leave a place

Thanks baby and Daddy.

Baby, you make me realise that you do love me as much.

10/22/2009 08:25:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

A painful mistake learn

I have no one to blame but myself, yes, due to carelessness, laziness and being afraid of troublesome. I have a bad habit of not zipping my bag so i can reach out for things easily, or jus leave things behind without noticing. And DUH now i lost my hp.

It was the most painful mistake i hav encounter, it was really hell hell. Greedy me excited i can get cookies, happily paid and walk up the stairs and realising that i lost my hp. I got the scare out of my wits, i was totally at a state of shock, luckily ws was calling my hp all the time going here and there with me. Emile & zx came down, thanks emile for searching carrying my bag and zx carrying my laptop. I was totally in shockness, called khim imme and he gt a shock. He came down like within mins, and i found out he was actu gonna surprise me but i gave him a even bigger surprise instead. Being always getting worked up and not being able to calm down me kinda pissed him off. He made me simmer down, qns and talked to me nicely.

Ws was calling the phone all along but to realise it was my voicemail music instead of the dialing tone. Sigh, the phone has already gone but all i cld do was jus cry. That process was so fcuking painful. Bcus :

#1 It was the first ever HP my daddy gotten for me and paid 500 without a single word
#2 It was like part of my life in whatever i do
#3 It was the one that kept me through boredom
#4 It was the one that diverts my attention whenever i wait for khim to reply me
#5 It was the one that allows me to fb, fml everynight before i slp
#6 It was the one that wakes me up every morning
#7 It was just like another part of me

#8 memories kept all in
#9 those msges that kept me moving when i had to read them everyday every night
#10 i treasure that phone so much then any others mainly it is from daddy !

# nvr ending ...............................................................

The msges that i had lost made quite a big impact, a whole 6mths of lovely msges jus gone. Those up and downs that we had been through, those making up, those sweet silly msges jus to cheer me up... are all gone now.

Alt it hurts, i believe memories do stil live in my heart.

So, it was already lost, headed to FYP room. Khim sat down, talked and reason it all out to me. But stil the moment i sat down, thoughts flow in i started bursting into tears. Even during lecture, lecture was all about HP, WLAN. and wlan which was the main usage of my E71. Khim drove me home, talked it all out with me and Daddy even intend to get a new one bcus he din wan mum to knw, it make me felt even worst. Baby checked his line, called starhub and he had a line to recontract. Without contract cost $800, freaking $800. I cant possibly let daddy get it, so baby let me use his line and cost only $348. But if the request of waiving $100 is approved,i only pay $248.

I know i know how pampered how spoilt am i. Baby told me i have to understand, learn from the mistake, not everything wil goes my way, and understand not everything i want i will have it.
I know the whole day my mind was all thinking that i want my E71 and i really want it. And baby even going all mights finding way to get it for me. I know baby is trying to not spoil me, let me work hard for what i want and not let things goes my way. But each time he sees me crys he feels totally helpless, all i cld do i jus cry neglecting the fact of him being upset too.

And yes, daddy gave me the money and now we are waiting for starhub to get back. Scold me spoilt and pampered i knw i deserve to be.

Knowing that i'm going on the wrong track, but the 2 beloved man in my life who love me so much let me be. Its not that they let things go my way but still they sat down and talk to me. I have to learn, to calm down and not jus cry.
Crying doesnt helps anything, Daddy : "daddy cant always be there for you helping you, what if i'm not ard anymore. You are a big girl already but how can i ever be relieve to trust u to stand on yr own."
Baby: " Baby you are a big girl, you cant just cry each time things happen. You have to learn from your mistake and whatever it is i am always here"

It has been a real hell day going through the shits, but baby was al along with me excpt leaving for training in the evening. I felt so much better, how he held me and guide me through. Touching my face gently each time i look at him, hugging me when i burst into tears and not even scolding me for crying, and lastly kissed me softly saying he is there.

My precious is gone but the lesson learnt is even more precious.

And tel myself always rmb to ZIP my bag and CHECK each time i leave a place

Thanks baby and Daddy.

Baby, you make me realise that you do love me as much.

10/22/2009 08:25:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun