Monday, November 2, 2009

s Alright, i'm still aint in the mood to upload, yx's bdae and others.

On a side note, i've finally gotten my precious E71 but den tie down by a $300 loan frm dad. I knw i shld b appreciative that he paid 300 for me already.

Sat met dan and went to help him for his work and head down to SIM to meet khim after his paper. SOOO while waiting for the phone to arrive, DAMN, we quarrelled all cause of clubbing and drinking what else. It sucks.

Sun had to wait on standby as always for his training to end. He came and join us for lunch and the family headed to town. We headed home and dinner was Fish and Co with his family.

Now FYP is causing so much stress, all packed up and rushed in this whole week. Barely any much time with khim since last week, Now his exam has end, its another sucky week. Today was suppose to celebrate after his exam but i got stuck up with FYP til 5, we had dinner with Dan and headed home. It was barely 9 !

To think tml is 30mths but so ? it doesnt matters isnt it. I wont be meeting khim bcus of FYP, after school he has training. Both of us know so well what isit i want. Yes, i wished i could see him after school and spent the night tgt. It upset and happy him telling me its 30mths tml. But so what? we wont be celebrating or seeing each other isnt it ? Trainings are so much more impt, i'm starting to get upset and sick of all those trainings. Tue morning night, Thur morning night, Fri morning, Sat morning, Sun morning afternoon. It seems never ever ending. Ever since, we have been spending so much lesser time tgt, no more late nights out, no more stayover. Each time i cant help but remind myself of those words he said of how he wont be commited, how he wil place me as priority how he would put me first if there is training. Yet none of this words are kept. Jus one day away jus forever seems so hard

Sigh.

i knw how upset how unhappy but i still have to swallow down and forget the next day. At the very least all i wish for is to feel my importance on the impt day.

Ok, Poor khim jus told me that he scratched the car and realised he left his paddle at SDBA. He must be feeling extremely upset and down now.

I wish i cld have the money to get 1 new paddle for him.

But,

useless me.

11/02/2009 09:08:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

s Alright, i'm still aint in the mood to upload, yx's bdae and others.

On a side note, i've finally gotten my precious E71 but den tie down by a $300 loan frm dad. I knw i shld b appreciative that he paid 300 for me already.

Sat met dan and went to help him for his work and head down to SIM to meet khim after his paper. SOOO while waiting for the phone to arrive, DAMN, we quarrelled all cause of clubbing and drinking what else. It sucks.

Sun had to wait on standby as always for his training to end. He came and join us for lunch and the family headed to town. We headed home and dinner was Fish and Co with his family.

Now FYP is causing so much stress, all packed up and rushed in this whole week. Barely any much time with khim since last week, Now his exam has end, its another sucky week. Today was suppose to celebrate after his exam but i got stuck up with FYP til 5, we had dinner with Dan and headed home. It was barely 9 !

To think tml is 30mths but so ? it doesnt matters isnt it. I wont be meeting khim bcus of FYP, after school he has training. Both of us know so well what isit i want. Yes, i wished i could see him after school and spent the night tgt. It upset and happy him telling me its 30mths tml. But so what? we wont be celebrating or seeing each other isnt it ? Trainings are so much more impt, i'm starting to get upset and sick of all those trainings. Tue morning night, Thur morning night, Fri morning, Sat morning, Sun morning afternoon. It seems never ever ending. Ever since, we have been spending so much lesser time tgt, no more late nights out, no more stayover. Each time i cant help but remind myself of those words he said of how he wont be commited, how he wil place me as priority how he would put me first if there is training. Yet none of this words are kept. Jus one day away jus forever seems so hard

Sigh.

i knw how upset how unhappy but i still have to swallow down and forget the next day. At the very least all i wish for is to feel my importance on the impt day.

Ok, Poor khim jus told me that he scratched the car and realised he left his paddle at SDBA. He must be feeling extremely upset and down now.

I wish i cld have the money to get 1 new paddle for him.

But,

useless me.

11/02/2009 09:08:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun