Saturday, November 7, 2009

i have been so lazy to blog or no mood i guess.

Anyway, on 031109 it wa the 30mths. It was hell through the day and den he came to sch to surprise me with a bouquet of flowers. it hurts me even more to think that a flower can jus please me and forget everything ? And then to even hurt more, he mention tt he is gng to rest and training ltr.

i was hopping mad and upset, i jus left the flowers right behind and even urge to jus dump it ! further more after sending him angry texts, he din even reply as though he doesnt bothers ! Sch end, i cheered myself up, joke with classmates and decided to train back tgt with em. While walking, someone placed his hand on my shoulder. Yes, it was a trick to make me angry.

I knw he blames me for making him choose between training and me. And the talked back home was horrible. I knw he was letting me knw his feelings towards db. But it feels as though it was a comparism between me and db. Esp hw he mentions if he come to me he is letting his brothers down. Its totally diff case isnt it ? Sigh, i don wish to bring this up again bcus every thought of it makes me feels so shit esp the part where it reminds me of hw he assures i'm his first priority.

Anyway, we went to had Marche, shopping and headed back home. i appreciated that night.

Wed was FYP panel, it was filled with much jitters and all. The intv was so sudden and we were shot down by 3 machine guns. After e intv for the first time, we felt so emo-ed. It was rly so bad tt spinnovex seems so far away frm us. Khim came to fetch me frm sch and we wen Central for his sis advanced bdae dinner. We had as usual hairy crab, it was a wonderful dnr but the bill was even wonderful. It costed 110$ per pax. My jaw dropped !

thurs khim was nice to pick me for lunch and den sch knwing i din had lunch. After sch was meet up with bec & char. We headed to ION & while shopping , bec's phone gt pick pocketed. Well, but she was all calm. We had dinner and starbucks, cam whoring like idiots. Much fun, esp in the toilet like nobody business. Baby came to picked me home and it was rather late :X

Fri after training baby came to pick me for breakfast. Can u imagine my boy had MC Griddles, Big Breakfast and Hotcakes for breakfast ? He went for his appt and headed back home after tt. Poor gal skins had rashes again, we waited for his Dad to pick us to the pet clinic. Night was dinner at 515A with his aunt and cousin.

Today we are not spending anytime tgt, he has training in the morning and IPPT in the evening ltr. Night we are heading to charles big 21st bdae party. Another one more week and baby's gonna b away frm me for god 3days. I knw its nth luh. But, i'm stil moving and learning hard to trust him bit by bit and i pray hard this time it wont get broken again.

11/07/2009 01:59:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

i have been so lazy to blog or no mood i guess.

Anyway, on 031109 it wa the 30mths. It was hell through the day and den he came to sch to surprise me with a bouquet of flowers. it hurts me even more to think that a flower can jus please me and forget everything ? And then to even hurt more, he mention tt he is gng to rest and training ltr.

i was hopping mad and upset, i jus left the flowers right behind and even urge to jus dump it ! further more after sending him angry texts, he din even reply as though he doesnt bothers ! Sch end, i cheered myself up, joke with classmates and decided to train back tgt with em. While walking, someone placed his hand on my shoulder. Yes, it was a trick to make me angry.

I knw he blames me for making him choose between training and me. And the talked back home was horrible. I knw he was letting me knw his feelings towards db. But it feels as though it was a comparism between me and db. Esp hw he mentions if he come to me he is letting his brothers down. Its totally diff case isnt it ? Sigh, i don wish to bring this up again bcus every thought of it makes me feels so shit esp the part where it reminds me of hw he assures i'm his first priority.

Anyway, we went to had Marche, shopping and headed back home. i appreciated that night.

Wed was FYP panel, it was filled with much jitters and all. The intv was so sudden and we were shot down by 3 machine guns. After e intv for the first time, we felt so emo-ed. It was rly so bad tt spinnovex seems so far away frm us. Khim came to fetch me frm sch and we wen Central for his sis advanced bdae dinner. We had as usual hairy crab, it was a wonderful dnr but the bill was even wonderful. It costed 110$ per pax. My jaw dropped !

thurs khim was nice to pick me for lunch and den sch knwing i din had lunch. After sch was meet up with bec & char. We headed to ION & while shopping , bec's phone gt pick pocketed. Well, but she was all calm. We had dinner and starbucks, cam whoring like idiots. Much fun, esp in the toilet like nobody business. Baby came to picked me home and it was rather late :X

Fri after training baby came to pick me for breakfast. Can u imagine my boy had MC Griddles, Big Breakfast and Hotcakes for breakfast ? He went for his appt and headed back home after tt. Poor gal skins had rashes again, we waited for his Dad to pick us to the pet clinic. Night was dinner at 515A with his aunt and cousin.

Today we are not spending anytime tgt, he has training in the morning and IPPT in the evening ltr. Night we are heading to charles big 21st bdae party. Another one more week and baby's gonna b away frm me for god 3days. I knw its nth luh. But, i'm stil moving and learning hard to trust him bit by bit and i pray hard this time it wont get broken again.

11/07/2009 01:59:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun