Tuesday, November 10, 2009

i have been thinking so much, i know i have always been thinking lahs.

First while on the train home just now, MST is coming. Means ? holidays are coming. Then it will be soon final exam and tt is the end of poly life. I hate those parting times. This 3 yrs have been so memorable with the cliques, so much fun times we been through. I'm starting to feel it already. im gonna miss those fun study times, disturbing each other,pinching nipples,dirty joke, random jokes, etc. Sigh.

but this is part of life i knw, everyone stil have to move on.

what i can do is treasure this few mths together and part happily and many of them will be going to army already.

This november have been pretty tough, lotsa "away". khim will b going for camp while i will be going to msia for a short getaway. This time we arnt gng tgt :( Everyone is asking me, it does adds on much sadness. Anyway he wldnt even be bothered by it but much more happier in spore without me and enjoying his bonding training camp. It all tunes back to those days where he was always available whenever, i miss Genting days where he take cares of me so well. Esp overseas, he takes extra care of me. whenever i get so excited with those shopping he wil follow me ard lest i get lost.

So when will be our next ?

I'm sure its pretty hard now, with his so COMMITED never ending db.

Ydae liyun was saying how busy he is to celebrate my bday tgt. So we are gng drinking this fri without him. It is SAD lahs. Alt he always give lotsa excuse to escape frm drinking and clubbing, this time i wil jus go myself without him. i do feel sad and want him to b with me protecting me. sigh. What can i do. Its his commited never ending db.

After waiting 2yrs, i have to hold on and wait another 2more years. After that ?

So now i am trying to buck up again and learn to go everywhere WITHOUT him like i use to be able to.

So this coming weekend i am gonna enjoy to fullest !

Dec he wil be going for Penang race, can i say tt i don wan him to ?
He wont even if i ask him not to.

Everything is jus accepting learning and givingg.

days and things will move on much easier

Despite how bad how selfish he is, i still could brave through each day trying to forget all the misgivings . Because i knw i love him.

And i always believe that he does love me.

Alt ppl are telling how unhealthy, how bad it is gonna b, i refuse to listen or do anythign about it bcus deep down i knw we do still love each other and we will brave it through. Giving up is never a route.

i thought our tough hard days are over but it seems even tougher ahead but whether are you willing to hold on tight and never let go, i never knw.

Tml is the day to spend tgt before 4 god days being apart :(
But suddenly khim gotta work til afternoon, its okay. Surprising i don feel much disappointment bcus its work, we can still have the rest of the afternoon and night :)

Christmas my most favourite festival is coming , *jumps* :D

11/10/2009 10:34:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

i have been thinking so much, i know i have always been thinking lahs.

First while on the train home just now, MST is coming. Means ? holidays are coming. Then it will be soon final exam and tt is the end of poly life. I hate those parting times. This 3 yrs have been so memorable with the cliques, so much fun times we been through. I'm starting to feel it already. im gonna miss those fun study times, disturbing each other,pinching nipples,dirty joke, random jokes, etc. Sigh.

but this is part of life i knw, everyone stil have to move on.

what i can do is treasure this few mths together and part happily and many of them will be going to army already.

This november have been pretty tough, lotsa "away". khim will b going for camp while i will be going to msia for a short getaway. This time we arnt gng tgt :( Everyone is asking me, it does adds on much sadness. Anyway he wldnt even be bothered by it but much more happier in spore without me and enjoying his bonding training camp. It all tunes back to those days where he was always available whenever, i miss Genting days where he take cares of me so well. Esp overseas, he takes extra care of me. whenever i get so excited with those shopping he wil follow me ard lest i get lost.

So when will be our next ?

I'm sure its pretty hard now, with his so COMMITED never ending db.

Ydae liyun was saying how busy he is to celebrate my bday tgt. So we are gng drinking this fri without him. It is SAD lahs. Alt he always give lotsa excuse to escape frm drinking and clubbing, this time i wil jus go myself without him. i do feel sad and want him to b with me protecting me. sigh. What can i do. Its his commited never ending db.

After waiting 2yrs, i have to hold on and wait another 2more years. After that ?

So now i am trying to buck up again and learn to go everywhere WITHOUT him like i use to be able to.

So this coming weekend i am gonna enjoy to fullest !

Dec he wil be going for Penang race, can i say tt i don wan him to ?
He wont even if i ask him not to.

Everything is jus accepting learning and givingg.

days and things will move on much easier

Despite how bad how selfish he is, i still could brave through each day trying to forget all the misgivings . Because i knw i love him.

And i always believe that he does love me.

Alt ppl are telling how unhealthy, how bad it is gonna b, i refuse to listen or do anythign about it bcus deep down i knw we do still love each other and we will brave it through. Giving up is never a route.

i thought our tough hard days are over but it seems even tougher ahead but whether are you willing to hold on tight and never let go, i never knw.

Tml is the day to spend tgt before 4 god days being apart :(
But suddenly khim gotta work til afternoon, its okay. Surprising i don feel much disappointment bcus its work, we can still have the rest of the afternoon and night :)

Christmas my most favourite festival is coming , *jumps* :D

11/10/2009 10:34:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun