Saturday, November 21, 2009

Time flies, with realising its the 3rd Regartta i've been with baby already.

Stil remembering, the 1st one was on our mthsary. Being a bad gf i din went to support him. Last yr i went on both days. The last day my whole family went, dad drove him to shower and had my bday dinner. Last yr was what i had so been looking forward to with all his promises but back to square one i am still going all this this year

This yr i wil be going as usual on the last race as always. He has such a bad gf hur, bcus i hate being ard with so many "foreigners" This yr is gonna b so much diff, no more with SP and gonna be with so many strangers.

Tonight we are gonna have dnr with his parents as we havent been eating with them the whole week and his dad is going abroad again tml. It Irene's 21st bday i cant find anytime to go down, i feel rather bad :( Hope she likes the bday gift from us.

Tml after the race he has his post race team dinner, i was still whining to him yday tt his always with me after his every race. Well, after being selfish for 2yrs i guess i have to follow him with many "strangers".

But now he has been very nice whenever bring me along to such events, he wld hold on to me not leaving me alone unlike the past. HOWEVER the very bad gf of him always leave him alone whenever i bring him along for events.

BUT its diff luh, he cld always entertain himself.

Whenever i'm left alone with strangers i wld b all alone and so quiet wishing i cld dig a hole in.

Unbelievable right? when i'm someone so noisy !

But this is one great phobia of mine , i hate being ard strangers all alone.

Sometimes u are so destestable so irritating, i hate you to the core but in the end i love you like crazy. Each time i get irritated by things you do i curse and swear but bottom line the love we had always overcomes it all.

its so amazing each time i think how we cld come so far. It all started so sweet so loving, so fairytale. Moving on to hell each day, quarrels, fights, that we got so tired of each other tt you gave up on me once. yes, til now i stil cant bring myself to think back of that night. The hurtful words you always blurt to me each quarrels. i hated you for that.

But each time we talk about the future the all waiting day that i have been urging for i felt happy i felt warm. i wish time cld fly but if you think, the time in fact isnt very long. We have to treasure this short period of time now before moving on to the next beginning step of our life.

What we had was nvr easy to come, we tolerated each other misgivings. you tolerated my unstandable childish temper, i tolerated yr bad hot temper. I had to accept for who you are which was so tough and i'm sure you had to too.

Each time i wldnt wan any unhappiness to affect us alt i stil cant brin myself to trust you after all the happenings. But deep down somehow there seems to be the trust somewhere. Just simply you cld make me smile with jus a sweet text frm you and made my day.

But hand in hand, we will make it through and walk the rest of our life tgt.
Love means forgiving and to accept the one you love.

Family that make me detest them so much at times but its when you are sick they are always there for you.
Its the hidden love

11/21/2009 08:54:00 AM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

Time flies, with realising its the 3rd Regartta i've been with baby already.

Stil remembering, the 1st one was on our mthsary. Being a bad gf i din went to support him. Last yr i went on both days. The last day my whole family went, dad drove him to shower and had my bday dinner. Last yr was what i had so been looking forward to with all his promises but back to square one i am still going all this this year

This yr i wil be going as usual on the last race as always. He has such a bad gf hur, bcus i hate being ard with so many "foreigners" This yr is gonna b so much diff, no more with SP and gonna be with so many strangers.

Tonight we are gonna have dnr with his parents as we havent been eating with them the whole week and his dad is going abroad again tml. It Irene's 21st bday i cant find anytime to go down, i feel rather bad :( Hope she likes the bday gift from us.

Tml after the race he has his post race team dinner, i was still whining to him yday tt his always with me after his every race. Well, after being selfish for 2yrs i guess i have to follow him with many "strangers".

But now he has been very nice whenever bring me along to such events, he wld hold on to me not leaving me alone unlike the past. HOWEVER the very bad gf of him always leave him alone whenever i bring him along for events.

BUT its diff luh, he cld always entertain himself.

Whenever i'm left alone with strangers i wld b all alone and so quiet wishing i cld dig a hole in.

Unbelievable right? when i'm someone so noisy !

But this is one great phobia of mine , i hate being ard strangers all alone.

Sometimes u are so destestable so irritating, i hate you to the core but in the end i love you like crazy. Each time i get irritated by things you do i curse and swear but bottom line the love we had always overcomes it all.

its so amazing each time i think how we cld come so far. It all started so sweet so loving, so fairytale. Moving on to hell each day, quarrels, fights, that we got so tired of each other tt you gave up on me once. yes, til now i stil cant bring myself to think back of that night. The hurtful words you always blurt to me each quarrels. i hated you for that.

But each time we talk about the future the all waiting day that i have been urging for i felt happy i felt warm. i wish time cld fly but if you think, the time in fact isnt very long. We have to treasure this short period of time now before moving on to the next beginning step of our life.

What we had was nvr easy to come, we tolerated each other misgivings. you tolerated my unstandable childish temper, i tolerated yr bad hot temper. I had to accept for who you are which was so tough and i'm sure you had to too.

Each time i wldnt wan any unhappiness to affect us alt i stil cant brin myself to trust you after all the happenings. But deep down somehow there seems to be the trust somewhere. Just simply you cld make me smile with jus a sweet text frm you and made my day.

But hand in hand, we will make it through and walk the rest of our life tgt.
Love means forgiving and to accept the one you love.

Family that make me detest them so much at times but its when you are sick they are always there for you.
Its the hidden love

11/21/2009 08:54:00 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun