Friday, December 11, 2009

time really does flies, it dec already. 3 more weeks its the end of 2009

And the day that i dread most i wish for it nvr to arrive has finally arrive.

It feels totally terrible, worst then the first time he left for even longer 6days.
He had nvr ever been away from me for so long other den me going to HK.

i really wish so much time cld fly to mon. And i'm sure the moment i see him i wld burst into tears. Sigh, that's the consequences of being so dependent on him. I keep telling myself this short period is for me to learn to b independent BUT i just cant stop thinking of baby :(

I'm so damn useless that i cant even do things properly without him ard.

i knw how i have entered into the dead path and there is no way for me to turn ard.
But stil i wished i cld just b strong and await his arrival back.

I really want him back right now :(

Mon he was ard to pick me from exam and brought me to the clinic, Tue he was also ard to went L4D2 with me, taking bus ride home, Staying over, cleaning up my clumsiness bcus i fear eating medicines, kissing me on the forehead before leaving for training. Acc him to his dentist, went home to rest, studied and waited for him when he went for his sports talk, thurs acc him for his appt, back home to rest, headed out for dnr and sent him to sch.

This few days memories keep lingering ard me :( I don knw why i am missing him so much.
Esp the image of him waking up in e middle of e night just to put the blanket properly on me and kissing me on the forehead.

i wish for him to b bck to celebrate the end of exams with me. But poor him is gonna have his wisdom teeth extract on wed. And to see him in pain :(

the bday surprise :)

Lucky i had doudou to acc me through

12/11/2009 12:41:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

time really does flies, it dec already. 3 more weeks its the end of 2009

And the day that i dread most i wish for it nvr to arrive has finally arrive.

It feels totally terrible, worst then the first time he left for even longer 6days.
He had nvr ever been away from me for so long other den me going to HK.

i really wish so much time cld fly to mon. And i'm sure the moment i see him i wld burst into tears. Sigh, that's the consequences of being so dependent on him. I keep telling myself this short period is for me to learn to b independent BUT i just cant stop thinking of baby :(

I'm so damn useless that i cant even do things properly without him ard.

i knw how i have entered into the dead path and there is no way for me to turn ard.
But stil i wished i cld just b strong and await his arrival back.

I really want him back right now :(

Mon he was ard to pick me from exam and brought me to the clinic, Tue he was also ard to went L4D2 with me, taking bus ride home, Staying over, cleaning up my clumsiness bcus i fear eating medicines, kissing me on the forehead before leaving for training. Acc him to his dentist, went home to rest, studied and waited for him when he went for his sports talk, thurs acc him for his appt, back home to rest, headed out for dnr and sent him to sch.

This few days memories keep lingering ard me :( I don knw why i am missing him so much.
Esp the image of him waking up in e middle of e night just to put the blanket properly on me and kissing me on the forehead.

i wish for him to b bck to celebrate the end of exams with me. But poor him is gonna have his wisdom teeth extract on wed. And to see him in pain :(

the bday surprise :)

Lucky i had doudou to acc me through

12/11/2009 12:41:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun