Hell Week

Saturday, March 20, 2010

It's gonna be a hell week, for me. for US.

Bcus pass few weeks baby did not go for Safra training, so he had to this week bcus its the last week. Well, who ask the helpful him agree to row for them. Then add on to double stress for him.

So, today a saturday we didnt spend any much time tgt. except a very short dinner after he ended, we had ICE3 after & headed home. Sometimes it seems so much better when we are out with friends bcus we wld be tgt till wee hours but he will be tired for training the next day. I rather he head home and rest early then. Tomorrow after training he have to go back home to do his projects and there goes the weekend for us, subsequent next week is MR already.

It seems that we meet up almost everyday, but in fact since 123243403 we have spend quality time together alone. Ever since CNY, wisdom tooth extractions, sun burns, work. Esp that wisdom tooth and this funny boy has sun burn on his lips with blisters which was really gross but painful.

i wish that this hell week get over fast, not only the weekends but he has school 4 days this week. Super packed !

Anyway everytime when race is coming up, this will happen and then after race he will be super sweet and nice and then start becoming cold again.

I've been thinking alot, i really do wonder, is he the one who can brings me happiness for the rest of my life. Or rather most importantly, accept me for who i am? love me for who i am? cherish me for who i am? Loving someone includes loving every part of her/him, and to accept every flaws. And if you really have accepted, would you still complain and bring it up?

I used to do that and felt that why isit that this guy who has so much flaws and flaws that i cld nvr accepted or thought i would love this person. Until recently i realised i have really accepted him for who he is. Bcus i no longer think and think why is he like that, or gets really pissed that i hated him so much. Instead, i remind myself of all the wonderful things of him each time i couldnt take it anymore and love him even more.

Is he really the one who can accept me for who i am?

i know that i love you i know that i want to spend my life with you, But i just cant trust that you will love me forever, you may love me now, you may love me before, but can i trust that you will love me for life?

I wish i could put off all the bad feelings away and fully trust you once again

Because you are the man that i love with all my heart, give you all i could to shower you the love, care, protect you when i can. You are the man that shower me with all your love, open your arms to protect me, give me warmth, never fail to make me happy, hold me tight in your arms and i know that you are the one who would always be there for me. Baby i love you, and i can give you my heart that i will always hold u you tight & never leave you alone.

3/20/2010 10:02:00 PM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

Hell Week

It's gonna be a hell week, for me. for US.

Bcus pass few weeks baby did not go for Safra training, so he had to this week bcus its the last week. Well, who ask the helpful him agree to row for them. Then add on to double stress for him.

So, today a saturday we didnt spend any much time tgt. except a very short dinner after he ended, we had ICE3 after & headed home. Sometimes it seems so much better when we are out with friends bcus we wld be tgt till wee hours but he will be tired for training the next day. I rather he head home and rest early then. Tomorrow after training he have to go back home to do his projects and there goes the weekend for us, subsequent next week is MR already.

It seems that we meet up almost everyday, but in fact since 123243403 we have spend quality time together alone. Ever since CNY, wisdom tooth extractions, sun burns, work. Esp that wisdom tooth and this funny boy has sun burn on his lips with blisters which was really gross but painful.

i wish that this hell week get over fast, not only the weekends but he has school 4 days this week. Super packed !

Anyway everytime when race is coming up, this will happen and then after race he will be super sweet and nice and then start becoming cold again.

I've been thinking alot, i really do wonder, is he the one who can brings me happiness for the rest of my life. Or rather most importantly, accept me for who i am? love me for who i am? cherish me for who i am? Loving someone includes loving every part of her/him, and to accept every flaws. And if you really have accepted, would you still complain and bring it up?

I used to do that and felt that why isit that this guy who has so much flaws and flaws that i cld nvr accepted or thought i would love this person. Until recently i realised i have really accepted him for who he is. Bcus i no longer think and think why is he like that, or gets really pissed that i hated him so much. Instead, i remind myself of all the wonderful things of him each time i couldnt take it anymore and love him even more.

Is he really the one who can accept me for who i am?

i know that i love you i know that i want to spend my life with you, But i just cant trust that you will love me forever, you may love me now, you may love me before, but can i trust that you will love me for life?

I wish i could put off all the bad feelings away and fully trust you once again

Because you are the man that i love with all my heart, give you all i could to shower you the love, care, protect you when i can. You are the man that shower me with all your love, open your arms to protect me, give me warmth, never fail to make me happy, hold me tight in your arms and i know that you are the one who would always be there for me. Baby i love you, and i can give you my heart that i will always hold u you tight & never leave you alone.

3/20/2010 10:02:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun