Monday, July 12, 2010

time really does flies, before I cld even prepare,

Baby is going for reservice tml.

mixed feelings.

Kinda upset.

I dont knw.

I just feel weird

Without him ard, I knw I'm gonna miss him badly.

Am already now.

bcus past few weeks he has been busy training,

We haven gotten to spend time tgt before tml.

But I'm really happy SIM won the PM cup this year.

you knw that kind of happiness that you just burst into tears,

I knw I'm crazy bcus it has nth to do with me

But I feel it, I don't know why.

I was really nervous and excited about the race,i was screaming away, heart pumping like its gonna drop out.

I really feel damn damn happy for baby,for SIM.

totally no words to describe.

but at every race I'm with baby,i always ponder did he rly do it for me like he always claim?

I always had to remind him of my presence each time.

Its kinda tiring.

Its no joke having to stay the whole day at race site under hot sun all alone.

Yes,all alone.

It isn't fun at all, really boring just sitting there the whole day, you get all sticky dirty and hungry just waiting.

At the end of the day,i get tired of this.

But I know this is being there for baby.

I always wonder how long is this gonna go, after 3yrs already.

Well...

Sigh, 5days without baby.

Really gonna sucks, I'm feeling it already.

Bcus we havent been given a chance to treasure the time before

I really wish I knew what you are thinking and feeling.

7/12/2010 12:07:00 AM I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky

time really does flies, before I cld even prepare,

Baby is going for reservice tml.

mixed feelings.

Kinda upset.

I dont knw.

I just feel weird

Without him ard, I knw I'm gonna miss him badly.

Am already now.

bcus past few weeks he has been busy training,

We haven gotten to spend time tgt before tml.

But I'm really happy SIM won the PM cup this year.

you knw that kind of happiness that you just burst into tears,

I knw I'm crazy bcus it has nth to do with me

But I feel it, I don't know why.

I was really nervous and excited about the race,i was screaming away, heart pumping like its gonna drop out.

I really feel damn damn happy for baby,for SIM.

totally no words to describe.

but at every race I'm with baby,i always ponder did he rly do it for me like he always claim?

I always had to remind him of my presence each time.

Its kinda tiring.

Its no joke having to stay the whole day at race site under hot sun all alone.

Yes,all alone.

It isn't fun at all, really boring just sitting there the whole day, you get all sticky dirty and hungry just waiting.

At the end of the day,i get tired of this.

But I know this is being there for baby.

I always wonder how long is this gonna go, after 3yrs already.

Well...

Sigh, 5days without baby.

Really gonna sucks, I'm feeling it already.

Bcus we havent been given a chance to treasure the time before

I really wish I knew what you are thinking and feeling.

7/12/2010 12:07:00 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun